
We have a fondness for cars in our family- for our own cars, and for those we see and admire. Our family group chat is often full of pictures of cars we’ve seen in our travels and want to share. Just this week I texted a picture of a 1958 Austin Healey from the back page of the AAA magazine. The very next day my daughter sent a photo of almost the same car parked on her university campus.
My husband travels often for work, has done for years. The two questions the kids always asked him when he’d call to wish them goodnight were, “Have you seen any animals?” and “Have you seen any cool cars?”
While we all admire cars, my son is the only one of us who actually works on them, unless you count the time he had his sister install a fuse behind the dash of his 1999 Volvo project car. She has very tiny hands and was the only member of the family who could hope to reach in without battering her knuckles bloody.
Seeing your child develop a skill that is all theirs, something you never taught them, is to my mind one of the best parenting experiences there is. It is humbling and yet such a source of pride. The following poem comes from this year’s February Poetry Adventure. The prompt was “engine,” and this is what it prompted for me.
Mechanical Virtuosity
We thought we'd take your car,
the one you tinker on
in your spare time
It has a certain cachet now
that it lacked when your father
and I had nearly the same model
before you were born
Then it was old, but now
it is vintage, or so you say
But on this day, when the sun
made a valiant but ultimately doomed
effort to shine, you turned
the key to start the engine
And nothing happened
I mean nothing
Not a click
Not a growl
Not a gasp
And in the moment, I was struck
by how long was the list in my mind
of potential problems
from the battery (good guess)
to the alternator (also solid)
to every other part of a car
I've ever heard mentioned
(shocks, struts, muffler)
to some I just made up
(winkle hinge, Knopfler valve)
to sun spots
While for you, with all you know,
all you have learned and taught yourself,
and the way your mind works,
that mysterious combination of
mechanics, intuition, and sorcery,
the list was so much shorter
You stood for a moment
and stroked your chin in that way you have
that seems both utterly yours but also
like it must have also belonged
to a great grandfather or long lost uncle
Then you nodded your head a few times
and told me the issue was most likely
one of two things, neither of which I can recall
at the moment, but that's really not the point
The point is how you have become
the most marvelous person,
a whole separate entity
from the two of us who made you,
and you know things
we'll never know
and can do things
we never taught you to do
and how that seems like
the very best kind of magic
The Public Domain Poetry Project reached a milestone this week. We finished or first poem, “Travel” by Edna St. Vincent Millay. For the last twelve weeks we have use a line from the poem as a jumping off point for a new poem. The project will be on hiatus for a while as I take a break for start of gardening season here in Maine. But when the heavy lifting is over I plan to return with a new poem. If you’re interested at what we did for those twelve weeks, this is a good place to start.
Thanks for reading, everyone!
Thank you Tara, this poem speaks to the heart. Beautiful.
My mom says the same thing. It must be such a wonderful and fascinating thing to watch as your kids continue to grow and form their personhood. And I always love hearing it from my mom. I feel loved when she notices. Love this poem, Tara! :)